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Friday, October 3, 2014

The adventure so far... part 1.5 or how I cried during a haircut

Before M posted the last post we discussed the purpose of the blog.  The main goal is to help us communicate with our friends and family about our journey but it is also a way for us to keep a record of this experience and this includes how we are doing emotionally so that in a year we can look back and see how we have or haven't changed. SO be prepared this is me being emotional.

I have started this post several times in my head: while wandering the aisles of Ikea, walking towards the playground, on the bus to this location or that, etc but I have 
1. Not sat down and started it
2. Am not necessarily sure how I am feeling
3. Get distracted a lot 

BUT I thought today would be a good day to sit down and write the post, this time here between my Spotify Partners Relocation Seminar (SPRS) and my first Spotify Swedish lesson (post on learning Swedish to come).  SIDE NOTE: Sadly I didn't finish the post until a couple of days later but I think that was for the better. I was really caffeinated Wednesday.   


G hanging in there
So HOW am I doing?  I am doing ok.  At the SPRS, we briefly touched on how to deal with a transition like this.  With each transition there is an ending, or a change from your reality like going from being single to being partnered, a neutral zone, where we adjust, and the new beginnings, where the new reality is the new normal. An analogue was giving that is like a trapeze swing, the ending is the initial bar where you start the swing, while you float through the air you are in the neutral zone and when you grab the next bar that is the new beginning. I don't think this Trapeze act is a linear processes but one that ebbs and flows and is more circular in nature and you find yourself at continually at endings and new beginnings.  It's how you handle the process that is important. ANYWAYS...
A visual of a transition

We were asked to think about what we left behind and then reflect on where we were in our transition. I even figured out where G and M are.  SO right now right here  M is holding on to the first bar with one hand, G is swinging at new beginnings and I am somewhere between the neutral zone and new beginnings. I am enjoying exploring Stockholm and everything this opportunity has to offer us and the experience we are having.  I am loving watching how G has just embraced the Swedish way. But I am struggling to help Marc see the glory that Stockholm, Sweden and the world has to offer us.

I am not saying that I don't miss Seattle and everything we have there, I do. I think it is a testament to what a wonderful life we had in there that we do miss it and are having a hard time letting go. We left for the opportunity and experience not as a way to escape.  We decided to come here and by golly I am going to try to find the positive in everything, even if it kills me.

I am not always successful at this, this is why I cried at my haircut on Friday.  The guy asked me questions like what do I want done with my hair and how short, and all I could think 'I don't know can we phone Fran and she will tell you.'
My first post-Fran hair cut....
Or walking down the street I see something and think you know who would enjoy this, INSERT YOUR NAME HERE. I then get sad and lonely that NAME isn't here.

BUT by golly I am going to find the positive in everything. (To every negative there is an equal and opposite positive.) Yes we have to climb 5 flights of stairs to get to our flat BUT I am back in my pre pregnancy jeans without any extra effort!  Yes our bathroom is a little quirky BUT when G pees on the floor I can just hose it down and squeegee it into the shower without getting out the mop.  

In El Salvador, I tried to live by my saying "Home is where you keep your underwear."  Here is where our underwear is and here is where we are creating our home.

The swing of G.  Look up, laugh and enjoy the ride!



3 comments:

  1. Indeed. Keep your head up, friends! Such an awesome ride you're on. Stay on it... see what happens. Muah!

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  2. So much to say for being able to freely pee on the floor! At least our three munchkins swear by it.

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  3. Please post more! I want to read more and see more of the little lady (and you too).

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